Well.................it's official.  As I sit here blogging my husband/soldier is at the airport waiting to board his flight.  I was able to spend a few last hours with him today at the airport.  The Sgt. handed out amusing books this am,

I can't figure out how to post images on here but as soon as I do I'll let everyone see.

I'm doing ok.  It's been hard, trying to be brave and not break down in tears in front of him, saving it for when i get back to the truck....................has made driving fairly difficult though. 

I have my Alex here with me.  He missed me.  I am not allowed to have Conner until next weekend.  I won't even get into that whole situation because Gods knows it won't do me any good and probably get back to his cunt ass mother.  (I've known her since college so I feel i have the right to call her a cunt when that's what she's always been)

The house is too quiet, like it's just sitting here waiting for Jim to walk through the door at any minute and turn on his SciFi stuff.  Obe has chewed through 2 leashes in the last 24 hours trying to find his way back to his Daddy.  Going to have to start sharing my Xanax with him I think.

I have to vent a little to.  While sitting at the airport today with my husband, just him and me, and one of the other guys shipping out with him.  He had his parents, grandfather, brother and fiance with him.  How good it must have felt to have support for something he wants to do and believes in.  I am so sad for Jim and I, not even me moreso Jim that not one person in his family wished him well, congratulated him on his choice to serve our country. 

I am so proud of him.  This took guts and strength that I know I don't have.  While people who are only his family by birth and not by choice are critizing him behind his back.  I can't wait until he gets back and hopefully by then we will have the money to get out of here and be able to tell his family to fuck off and take there Jehovah with them!!!   Cruel you might say?  Yes................but also cruel when he is only called to do jobs, saying it's a front.  Bullshit.  You want to see your family you fucking see them and don't hide behind your religion. 

Well, I've probably pissed a lot of poeple off with this but oh well. 

I am off to keep myself busy with paint swatches and cleaning and laundry.  Maybe I can just clean straight until June and I won't even know he is gone.  Gonna take a lot of alcohol.