well................i'm tired.......bone tired.................after awhile 3 jobs wears you down........I took another job at my doctors office and have been there all this past week.  I absolutely LOVE it there I'm just worn down.  The tears are ever brimming and holding them back is getting harder and harder every day.  I just wish they would come and get the stupid rendevous so it will be done and over with.  some of you may still be wondering about the 3 job thing.   Finacially, we screwed.   utilities, rent, car payments.  we're done.  screwed, up a shit creek, you can fill in the rest. 

so, I'm just tired, nothing else, tired.  my agency is furious with me for taking another job.  oh well, what can they do....fir eme?  maybe then i could get rested. 

having female problems, not going into detaili cause it's really gross but it doesn't help right now.  I just want to crawl into a corner and die, Jackie, i'm sorry i don't have your email, let alone th etime to contact you.......i'm really not being rude, just honest.

love you all.  goodnight